Yeah so this is pretty self explanatory. I thought I'd write about why the album became so bipolar and so incoherent. And why that might actually be a good thing!
In all honesty, in the beginning, I just didn't know what I wanted to do exactly. And I still don't. I think it's actually better not to ever know everything in life. I wanted to make some angsty nu metal, I also wanted to make something more upbeat and uplifting. I didn't want the album to leave the listener into the state of "Everything sucks...Life is meaningless..." yet I still wanted to get some of my negativity and aggression out. I originally had just these darker songs in the style of the first half of the album, but then I realized that I don't want to be that guy who is just constantly negative about everything. So I got down to writing some stuff that is not all that super angsty and dark, but wouldn't be awkwardly happy in comparison either. There is still a very noticeable gap between for example My Pain and Our Day Is Beautiful, but somehow I feel like neither of them are out of place on the album. Or maybe they are completely out of place and shouldn't be put together, but I don't give a fuck. I just didn't care about pleasing a certain group of listeners over another, so I (sort of) divided the album into two halfs with the interlude in the middle. It's kind of like two EPs crashed into each other at high speed so that they sort of "overlapped" (I hope that's the right word for that). Although my next album might not be as divided as this one, I don't regret my decision to keep this album as a very incoherent and confusing mess.
I really enjoy doing "post-rock-ish" tremolo picking and echoing guitars AND catchy nu metal rhytm guitars, so that's also something I wanted to combine and felt that there is not enough music like that out there so that's how the basic idea for the guitars on this album came to be. Some people might find it a very strange combination, but that's not my problem. I also enjoyed doing all kinds of different vocal styles, which is the explanation why so many tracks differ from each other. I will try to get all of these different styles go more hand in hand in the future. There is always room for improvement.
I also did pretty much everything myself, so that might explain some things, such as why has no-one seen Charming Timur rocking out at the Ozzfest or Woodstock. I even mixed and mastered the whole thing myself and recorded it at my home, so yeah the quality is not the best in the history of music, but I think it turned out really good considering everything I just said in this paragraph. I think I might actually have my next material mastered by professionals, OR I MIGHT NOT, it depends on how I feel about it when the time comes. I know some people are always against lo-fi sounds and other people love that style of production, and maybe I will be doing both. Whatever I will do in the future, it will have something in common with ABMOE, and also have something new and different too.